Trust?

Was trust really hard to build up?
Why will you trust someone that has just knew than someone who you have known for so long?
I'm being blacken myself in order to tell you the truth no matter how much you will hate me as long you don't been cheated again.
Why must you trust flowery words than a true word that hurt you but it gives life's lessons to you.
Why?
Telling you the truth that I know, will make you hate me but I choose it not because I don't cherish this relationship but because I care about you.
Do you know that?
:(

Happy birthday sis

Wow, time flies really fast. Today is my sister birthday.
Happy birthday sis.

Here is a pic I took with my sis. ;) wad a nice pic.
Today I even go to Ghotel with Szeying,szewei, Elaine, Mei fong, sze ting and Pn.loke.
We go for buffet lunch which is quite good and we won a lucky draw.
All of us decided to give the lucky draw to Pn.loke and her husband. ;)

Here is my picture of my sweet seventeen wearing shirt that sze lyn gave me on my birthday.

Haha. How was it? Nice? Beautiful? Wonderful?

My god. I'm so perasan. Hahaha

Out of sudden today, I miss her again but deep in my heart I know that is impossible for her to SMS again. So yeah.

Just let it, Julian. I always told myself that.

That is for today. Have a nice day for tmr. 

Score high high for modern math n give Pn.ng a shock......

Sweet seventeen;) good or a bad day?

Few minutes more, it gonna be my birthday -sweet 17th birthday! This is the time where I'm still 16 before I'm transform to 17(older). I was very happy that my friends remember about my birthday and yesterday they gave me present. I appreciate it very much deep in my heart.
Here some the pictures that I took for the present as a memory. <3

As I'm counting down for my sweet seventeen birthday, I pray that tomorrow I'll receive a SMS or greeting from someone that I'm always care. I don't know why am I still holding on the hope that I know it wont happen. As I know deep in my heart I'm not the important one for her as I can see with my eyes, she don't even wanted to look at me, smile at me or even talk to me. But still, I don't want to give up spiritually. Maybe today is the time where I will know the answer. Izzit what I think iSight or wrong. No matter how cool a person is, if the day brings the special meaning for sure, he or she will wish others. So I shall wait and see. Let's make a pinky promise, if a bad thing really happen- I don't receive a single greeting or wishes from her..truly I'm nothing to her. And it's time for me to really forget about it and this is just a test that god gv me. Test is just a test, after it , ntg else has a meaningful meaning. I'm glad that I hv something that is so precious for me to let go.

Last but to least, HAPPY SWEET SEVENTEEN JULIAN ;) I'm big girl now. Nights.

Thinking of the world 3oct2012

Sometimes in life, we often think why the person you love the most will not trust you? Or the person that you have been with so long.. Now I understand how terrible was the feeling when you have done so many things for so many people and yet it seems no one was going to appreciate you. People BELIVE more what other people told them instead of believing what they see or hear the most from their own eyes or ears. Can't they feel how a person treat them and knowing that person even more detail with themselves or from the beginning they planned to take people as granted that they don't even have the intention to know that person and judging that person with to what other people said. What will you think and feel if this happen to you?